Jan 1 2010 no comments Life Personal
It’s funny how the year came and went as fast as it did, and given that the new year starts in Arizona in about seven hours or some’at, I figured it might be good to look at the good and the bad of this year, at least through my eyes.
NOTE, the following is the opinion of the author and does not reflect a fact or anything of the like. Blogs are fun, and not to be srs bzns
The year of 2009 started with a massive amount of emotional upheaval on my part and on part of my new ‘family’, (my boyfriend’s mom, mostly) as there was problem with his and our relationship, as well as his mother and her beau/husband/etc. A lot of stuff I’d rather not remember went down, and in the end I started off last year feeling like curling up in a ball and dying, possibly rapidly.
But on a less personal note, the year saw way too many people just up and dying on us, random celebrities, long-time friends, people you barely knew and the people you wish you hadn’t, but honestly it seemed like 2009 was the year to reflect on the death of /someone/, at some point. It was a bit depressing the number of times you read the words “Such and such has died at their home/on the way to the hospital/on arrival/” etc, and even less heartening than the fact that we seem more interested in their deaths than their lives.
The relationship drama evened out, after some upheavals of my own involving me and my best friend and the fact that we both had one of those “naked in an emotional sense” moments where we were just bare and realised that life would not be the same without one another, but perhaps now wasn’t the time to explore that in depth. I ended up happily back with my beau and through a few bumps, things seem to be better now.
The summer saw my losing eyesight in my left eye for, oh, a good six months. A lack of insurance and a lack of ability to actually self-manage will do that to you (thankfully, the eye is open now, even if blurry as hell, it’s still somewhat working and for that I’m thankful).
All in all, the year was normal, emotional drama, physical illness, all that goodness wrapped up into a year where I saw more movies than I had in any year previous and had more times of just wanting to snuggle up under a blanket and cry to music than I thought I would ever have (when in retrospect I used to do this every month when I was still single, and it’s much less now).
I was both musically moved and emotionally dragged through music and movies this year, so my entertainment level was high– I honestly found more music and films that I loved than I think I ever had in just one year before, (and this calls for this song getting a mention, as its moved me in ways I can’t really explain. Dragon Hunters was an amazing movie, with an amazing soundtrack. :x).
I don’t get Lady Gaga, I don’t understand the fascination with the Jonas Brothers, I don’t understand the need for every new movie to be about a marriage that happened that was so not supposed to but ends up being the best thing for the people because they’re really in love. I don’t understand a lot of things about the obsessions that started this year, but this doesn’t mean I don’t respect others’ rights to them.
I found twitter, and lost all my respect for some people, but am at least having some fun with the entire thing– it’s not nearly as annoying as I had originally thought. Not nearly as fun as Gaming, but nothing will ever replace my love.
I think my New Years Resolution will have something to do with finding personal happiness and actually seeing other people around me happy– striving further to make those I love happy– and… you know, losing those excess pounds that most people want to lose after the Holidays (me, moreso than others).
How was your year? Everything work out as planned or have you found yourself struggling too? Feel free to comment and let me know.
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