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All this is being typed from a very uncomfortable position on my back in bed, given that I can’t really move or sit upright because of the pain in my back.  It makes it a bit harder to be optimistic about the new year when you’ve spent the first few days of it in excruciating pain to the point of crying your eyes out at one point, but in the end, everyone has to move on and perhaps find themselves a little foothold to get through the day and otherwise, yes?

Everyone makes resolutions, whether for themselves as guidelines to a better them for the new year, or just because it seems expected at this point in our lives.  Take stock of what we did wrong and make better on it the next year.   It’s almost an open pass to let go the failures of the year before and make way for possible new ones, all with hope that doesn’t seem to spring eternal, and more that it only lasts until spring.

I’m going to endeavor to actually stay on board with my own resolutions this year for various reasons, but even I’m expecting a minute level of failure on my part, and I think that’s somewhat healthy.  It keeps my expectations surprisingly low when it comes to things I should do and when I go above and beyond, perhaps I’ll feel a bit better about myself and what I’ve done, which will spur more conquests.  Who knows?

• Take better care of my skin – this one kind of comes as a catch-all for dealing with my dry skin and certain marks that have been left behind by neglect.  I want to try to look better this year in ways that I haven’t bothered trying before.  It’s somewhat superficial, but in a way I’m just tired of having overly dry skin and feeling a bit off.
• Eat healthier and therein lose a bit of weight – it’s usually the biggest resolution of anyone and everyone, but honestly? I mean it this time.  Even if I don’t lose weight I want to eat healthier, because eating crap is doing nothing for me.  If decent food is not provided as an option, I will make brown rice and eat the hell out of that for the next year, who cares, it’s delicious. With Guide to Healthcare Schools you can learn what it takes to have a healthy mind and body.
• Find a way to fix my vision and teeth – Both have fallen by the wayside in the past few years, though the teeth have been going a lot longer than that.  A few lapses in the ability to have running water in my teens provided me with some bad habits regarding dental health, but I have since created a regime for myself that I have been religiously following for about two years now, I just want to improve it even more.  As far as my eyes go, the need for glasses is becoming more than apparent after the dry weather has ravaged my left eye.
• Call home more – Usually I’m just at a loss as to what to say, it’s nothing that I’m trying to avoid, I just end up avoiding it without trying, but I need to make an effort to call more, as they’re my family and I love them.
• Get my life in check – a vague and open ended resolution, for sure, but I need to make some kind of dent in what I’m doing with my life, regardless of what others are doing in theirs.

It’s not much, and they’re mostly stupid little things that I should have been doing anyway, but it seems useful to actually write them down, and maybe track my progress through all of them as a whole.  We’ll see how things go this year, I suppose.