chaos reigns

Chaos has many meanings, and originally when I opened the fanlisting a long time back I did so because I was in a state of being where I realised that chaos is all around us; whether we want it to be or not, it is inundated in our lives and constantly mucking up the works, so you either learn to flow with it or get swept up in its wake.
While Chaos isn't so much something to be 'worshipped' or even 'encouraged' as it were, it does exist and trying to refute that will only lead to frustration and exhaustion, that's why I decide... just be a fan of the chaos in your life -- the things you can't change, or control, or even see sometimes -- and try to work with them instead of pushing against them.

fanlisting?

A fanlisting is simply an online listing of fans of a subject, such as a TV show, actor, or musician, that is created by an individual and open for fans from around the world to join. There are no costs, and the only requirements to join a fanlisting are your name and country. Fanlistings do not have to be large sites (although some are) - they are just a place where you can have your name listed along with other fans of the same subject, says thefanlistings.org.