No, I’m not talking the kind of thing that kids complain about to give themselves reasons to stay up all night– if I don’t take a heavy dose of tylenol PM every night I tend to lack the ability to fall into a restful sleep, which leads to me not sleeping at all, hence I’m still up from the night before because I am out of my ambrosia.

However, it tends to happen that I think of interesting things to write while in these states of mind, but don’t have the energy to actually write anything resembling good content, and while the Buffy dissection is pending ((most likely going to start with Band Candy as it got two suggestions)), later today if I can get up my blustering gusto, I’m going to write about the degeneration of how games use to have stories, and now they have graphics– I’m not just talking RPGs, either, I’ve seen amazing stories in the last few years in a few games that were then called fail because they didn’t feature enough new shiny stuff. It will be a rant of epic proportions, folks.

I’m also going to, at the behest of a new friend, start cross-posting my blogs over at SPiRiTLiNG, so everyone should have access to them across the board without me having to post them as content– I’m hoping some of you will be scooting over to join on the community, as it’s a place for gamers to feed their habit, and get rewarded, at least in the future. Either way, look forward to a few new posts within the next couple of days with semi-interesting content.

Defining Love.

After my rant a few days ago about Stephenie Meyer’s misconception of the simple fact of love, I’ve been pondering writing a post on what love is, at least in my eyes– it’s going to turn into a rant however, so I’m easing myself into it piece by piece.

People have this idea that love is something that can be manipulated, that it can be tamed, or reasoned with– but it can’t. Love doesn’t listen to reason, love doesn’t listen to anything but the rush of blood through your body at the mere mention of someone. Yes, it can be confused with lust, but love is something altogether different, it’s consuming in a way that is subtle sometimes, and beating you in the face at others. It has taste, feel, scent… it has everything you’d ever want, and some of the things you wish you didn’t. Love is destructive, and powerful, and should be respected, not handed out like candy on Halloween.

Love isn’t something conditional, it doesn’t come only when someone loves you in return, it burns through you like fire whether they return your affections or not, you are happy for them, you are happy for yourself for not being completely obsessed and thus giving into the false feeling of lust and faux-love, but instead a healthy kind of love– the kind of love where you know that no matter what happens, the love will be there. Even if you hate each other one day, you’ll always love them, want to see them do well in life, want to touch them, be near them, hug them, even if you can’t stand the sight of them. You won’t act on these wants– you won’t even let them be a ruling force in your day to day, instead you will go on, you will live your life knowing that you are blessed that love even touched you, knowing that somehow, you will always be a part of someone, and someone will always be a part of you.

Everyone is entitled to love, no matter what you think, no matter where you’ve come from, you deserve to be loved, and I assure you, you are. Someone loves you, and while it may not be what you want, it may not be who you want, love that feeling, love knowing that someone out there thinks you’re special, because you are– love gives you that, love gives you a feeling of purpose, whether it’s from who you want or not, it’s love… it’s real and it’s love and you should be happy for it.

Love should not technically be an end all for you, but being a romantic isn’t a bad thing– loving love is natural, loving love to the point of foregoing all other emotions is not. While it may seem healthy, it isn’t… somehow people seem to think as long as they’re happy and loving everything is fine, but you’re denying yourself other experiences, and therefore denigrating love’s entire purpose. Love lifts you up, and makes you feel like you’re high as a kite, but it can also send you crashing right back down if you treat it poorly.

I’m ranting, and have been ranting, but I’m honestly not sure how else to define love. It’s raw, passionate emotion that comes out unbidden, and that’s what this post is. Something that I’m just letting myself write, without thought for grammar, or technique, or even how many people will care I’ve written it, but more an expression of adoration for love.

Maybe later I’ll post some of my best love stories, that I’ve personally experienced. How about you guys, any stories you want to share?

Dissecting Buffy.

Weird title, I know, but people who know me at all know what a fanatic I am about Buffy the Vampire Slayer and how I tend to watch and re-watch the series more than is healthy, I’m sure– I think over the next few days I’m going to feature a few episodes that speak to me, for whatever reason, and get a bit into dissecting them as a whole– from perspective of back then, as well as today, and see if the message still works for everything that goes on these days.

Joss Whedon, being the genius he is, has probably more talent at doing this sort of thing in his pinky nail than I have in my entire body, but I feel the need to go through and have a bit of fun with that. Nothing will be off-limits, and as I recently read Buffy Fashion Roulette I might even get into the idea of prodding at the actual fashion and themes– we’ll never know until we try. I’m taking votes on which episode I should do first- instead of doing random pull, I figure I’ll give everyone a chance to voice in– if I don’t get anyone suggesting anything I’ll just pick one at random, but I’m hoping some people will help out. 😀

Leave a comment here with which Buffy episode you want me to watch and dissect from all angles, no episode is off-limits as I have them all. <3

Five Underrated RPGs.

I’m getting a little happy with the lists lately, but honestly, we have a few games that are highly underrated for how good they are– I know people have played them and love them, and I suppose they’d earn the title of Cult Classic in some ways, but the mainstream gamers rarely have a chance to taste the deliciousness of these games, and honestly, I feel that’s kind of a travesty. So that’s why this list has been devised, to give people an idea of what to purchase for themselves the next time they have a bit of cash, or in some cases, a lot of cash.


Such a couple of other series on this list, Grandia‘s sequels did surprisingly better than it did, and while that’s fine and good for them, people are missing something unique here in the game, and it follows the same type of play-style that Grandia II did, but the story somehow was more easy for me to fall into– there was something all too lovable about Justin as a character, and Sue’s entire presence in the game seemed to be almost just begging to break your heart at some point– the underlying story might seem a bit strained, but the characters and interactions are strong enough to draw you in and make up for that– everyone will find a favourite character in this series, and if you don’t adore Leen and Feena, you’ve lost your mind at least somewhere along the way. It’s worth at least a play through, to get an idea of where the series was born.

Mother Series

Most people have at least played Earthbound, or heard of it from one of their fanatical friends, but it surprises me how little exposure this series gets in the States, given that it has one of the most unique play-style and storytelling systems you’ll ever see– while the game is laced with puns and seemingly idiotic points of game-play, you’ll find yourself immersed in a story you didn’t realise was as amazing as it was before you started. A mediocre concept of saving the world is taken to whole new levels through the series’ several games, and while I’ve only had a chance to play Mother 2(Earthbound) and Mother 3, I feel that the series needs more exposure than it has, because the message is there, and the game plays like a story.


Contrary to the idea that the sequels did better than the original, Xenosaga is the sequel, or prequel, here, and most people write it off as the “best anime they ever watched”, which is hilarious– I understand that the beginning of the game is a bit long-winded, but the story is building into something far more compelling that most people can understand– it has one of the longest, yet most beautiful beginning cut-scenes ever, and foregoing that because you don’t want to sit through it all and you want to blow shit up means you should probably be playing an FPS and not an RPG ((I’m not denigrating FPS’, I love them, but this list is about RPGs, so)). I absolutely adore the way they did the combat system in this game, and through each of the subsequent sequels it gets harder and harder to master, so you’ve always something fresh to try and learn, and as said, the story is amazing.

Suikoden Series

I cannot stress enough how much the entire series of Suikoden deserves to be touted as one of the greatest in the world– the only reason it’s at number 2 is because I honestly feel like it has a bit more exposure in the mainstream than the top game, but it still needs more– the game should be on it’s billionth sequel, because contrary to Final Fantasy as the story goes, it gets more compelling ((barring 4 which was an oddly mistimed misstep)), and you want more of them through the story. You want to find out more about these characters and where they’re going, and you honestly find someone in nearly ever game that you can relate to from a previous game, someone you’ve loved develops a new personality, or you find out more about their past, and it’s amazing. The fighting style is one of my favourites of any game, feeling a bit more customisable than most as you can set up people with different runes and fight styles through their rows– also it warrants mention that the secondary combat system through the Wars is one of the most unique you’ll see, and I do mean in all the games. It tends to shift style with each game, but you’ll never find yourself bored with the game in any measure of the word.

Wild ARMs

The original of a long-standing series, Wild ARMs doesn’t seem to attract near as much attention as its sequels, and I find that to be utterly sad, considering it started the series, and in its heyday, it was one of the most unique RPGs of its time. While trying to avoid spoilers, I will say that any game that starts the way Wild ARMs does, deserves at least a bit of attention ((those who have played it will know exactly what I mean with the real beginning)). I honestly find myself more attracted to this one than its sequels, I find the characters more lovable and the story much more… easy to follow in its complexity. You find yourself sympathising, or at least empathising, with the ‘villains’, and sometimes you wonder if you’re on the right side. Also, it needs noting that Rudy Roughknight is one of the most amazing characters ever for a silent protagonist. It was touted enough to get a remake for the PS2, but somehow it still feels under appreciated for what it is. Great game.

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Five seems like a small number for underrated RPGs, but there becomes a point when you realise that your favourite series’ are more than a little under appreciated for whatever reason. Do any of you have cult favourite games? Or games that no one but you seems to like?

Five Animes that Would be Amazing in Live Action.

While I realise this has probably been done, I feel like doing it, as I was inspired by The Last Airbender coming out– yes, I know Avatar: The Last Airbender was not anime, I feel it kind of has the same feel to it, so it’s easy to shift across those lines, as far as I’m aware, anime in Japan is anything animated, so.

Beyond that, I’ve been thinking about it for a few days, series that would be amazing play-overs to real life, inspired choices hopefully to give the feel of epicness that you got while watching Live Action Death Note– it may not have been perfect, but it was good. I’ve decided to keep it down to five as to not spam and all that, and to keep a more fluid reading. 😀

5. Samurai Champloo

It was bound to feature on this list somewhere, wasn’t it? I think it might be one of the easiest to translate over to the idea of a live action film, as most of the elements within the show easily lend themselves to the idea of reality happening– while it might turn into just another samurai movie flick to most people, even by the name, I assure you there is enough going on within the plot with humour and integrated story-line to actually keep you enticed for at least a full, feature-length film, if not several.

4. Full Metal Alchemist

It has several of the themes one would want to see within a Live Action film, and if cast right, it would find itself among one of the most beloved cross-overs to ever happen. There isn’t a person out there who hasn’t experienced Full Metal Alchemist in one way or another, and the ability to have amazing special effects to pull people into the story just seems immense. Can you imagine a realistic Alphonse? Utterly adorable and would immediately go down in history as one of the most beloved characters in a Live Action film ever.

3. Full Moon wo Sagashite

I know it’s likely that everyone reading this list is giving me the cock-eyed look of ‘wtf’, but honestly, it would satisfy the need for a bishoujo series within a frame that is easily able to be shifted over into the realm of live-action. We’ve seen just as many shows like this, with a bit less ‘mahou‘ done in America, so I don’t see why a Japanese shift with beautiful voices and compelling love story would be any more of a stretch– besides, can you honestly say you don’t want to see a real-life Yui, or Takuto. Eee~

2. Soul Eater

This might be more wishful thinking of a fangirl, as some of the roles would be so utterly ridiculous to cast it’d be almost startling, but I can’t imagine a cuter more awesome anime to shift into the realm of Live Action than Soul Eater. While it may take some doing, I find the story itself would easy be relatable for most of its fans, and the entire concept does scream ‘feature film’ as most of its fans felt the entire thing was too short anyways, seeing a remake continuation of what we did love would be absolutely amazing in the realm of reality.

1. Hellsing

Come on, can you imagine Hellsing as a Live Action? Having an actual Seras for boys to ogle and get all gooey eyed for, and for some of us, a realistic Alucard to curl up against and just beg to be eaten alive? Plus, the action and story-line would be amazingly well played out in a feature length film. I wouldn’t mind seeing a Hellsing Live Action Series, but honestly… I just want some realistic Alucard, Seras, and Integra, because the story itself was one of my favourites of all the animes I’ve watched in the last several years. 😀


Now seems as good a time as any to mention that all of these were chosen as they were completed Series’. I don’t feel comfortable making a ‘make this into live action’ thread about things I haven’t seen the entirety of, and if a series is continuing, I can go from thinking it’s amazing to thinking it’s crap quicker than you can say ‘lickity split’. That being said, do you agree? Do you disagree? What would you have added?